Things have been happening really fast lately so excuse the absence. We have moved all our dates up for - well - everything just in the last few weeks.

Tim and I are putting an offer on a house Tuesday.

Wedding date is set for May 30th of this year.

Even making a list of things to-do is too overwhelming for me at the moment. Oy vey. Even writing this entry is too much for me right now. I'm very much the anti-Tim when it comes to anything work related which I pretend is endering and helpful when it comes to us.

Having money means not spending money.

Totally blows.

Nothing.

I haven't done anything since the funeral.

It only hurts when if you think about it

Yeah I still haven't cashed the damn things. Its racked up to 7k+ now and I still feel no enrgency but we will see if that changes with my next credit card bill. Oy vey. I still haven't done laundry either, you really don't want to know the last time I washed my jeans even with my very resonable excuses it's still been a while since I washed them.

How was everybody's Christmas? Spent lots, got lots? My mom gave Tim 200 dollars for his dental work, a boring gift but Tim was touched. There was more but who cares. I got lots of stuff that I wanted and got other people stuff things I thought they would enjoy.

Tomorrow I have to go get my picture taken with Tim's family. I'm not at all interested.

 

Nothing to see here.

Nothing.

I finally finished my Christmas shopping last night andI still don't feel ready for tomorrow.

I worry whenever I wash dark denim. Is there anyway to get from fading.

I have over 3k in checks that I still haven't deposited into my savings. I'm so lazy. Gah. Tim's work party is this Thursday and I don't know if I will be able to gather enough energy and enthusiasm needed to be pleasant company.

There is a certain person in my life that thinks I'm stupid or at least stupider then herself. This once minor annoyance is now to much so I just stopped contact with them. It was my fault to begin with since I lead people to that conclusion as my fail safe to make them comfortable...but really now it's been years since I've done that catch on.

Tim's mom wants me to come over and teach her how to make dipped pretzels. How am I suppose to get out of that. Everytime I come over she harks me about getting her a list of ingredients she needs and what day I will be able to come over and show her. There really isn't a way out of this -- well there is but not without hurting Tim's feeling (becuase lets face it I don't give a fuck about hurting hers).

I want my blog to be finished.

I'm not having a reception. My life has just become a lot easier. Tim was excited about planning one but now that the engagement has settled his focus has shifted to putting the money elsewhere so I told him how I felt and he agreed to have a small brunch instead.

Options.

That's what's is killing me at this point. Not stress, not money, not family or my fiance it's OPTIONS. I have come to a complete stand still with everything and anything. I haven't touched my journal for weeks and wedding planning...well that word isn't allowed around here anymore until I am able to wrap my brain around everything. Everytime I think about it all my brain starts to swells and leak with it all.

We have started to look at houses to see what's in our price range and potential neighborhoods. This of coarse providers only more options for us.

Poop.

I haven't done anything related to wedding planning for a week now and to be honest I don't think I will for a while. I haven't even really told anyone about my engagement either. I hate telling everyone that it's not until 2010 becuase my mom always chimes in "Tim is determineded to buy a house" like we are poor. I just want a spring wedding people, give me a break.

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I vivid remember my first day of high school math my teacher told us that high school would be the best years of our lives and I thought that was a bunch of bull shit. I'm now 23 and I still think it's a bunch of bull shit.

I love this period in my life.

Tim asked for framed pictures of me for his work for his birthday. The problem is I don't have any pictures of myself to give. This is about the only one I have so here it is in it's uneditied glory. I did however find lots from my days in Highschool. Awww! Baby faced Tim!

( A Walk Down Memory Lane )

Does anyone else remember this gum. Nothing screams childhood to me quite like Fruit Stripe gum. I use to pick up a pack whenever I went shopping with my mom and hide it in my drawers before I went to bed only to discover it gone the next day. I still don't know who got into my gum.

I had a nice sweet birthday.

Child planning. That's an incredibly scary phrase isn't it. CHILD PLANNING. I remember when I turned 21 and started to think that people my age where getting married and having children and I had an anxiety attack. Now that Tim and I are engaged (it almost happened a couple of times, did you know that?) we are starting to talk more in-depth about family planning. Children right after we get married is neither one of our goals so we have been talking over the options. Tim said he would feel comfortable using just condoms even if they do break and so forth. I almost fainted. I told him if the condom broke I would be running naked to the pharmacist.

Scary shit. Babies are terrifying.

I'm going on the pill after I get married because I'm vain and don't want to gain any weight before the big day so if I get pregnant before it's effective I'm going to kill.

I miss his little baby stink head. The next time we might see them is if they are able to fly out for the "event". Did you know that out of 800+ pictures there are none of me and him. Yep, that's right, I didn't even think to have someone take our picture.

Tim and I have talked more and more about our options. Everytime I think I know what I want another option comes up.

For a couple of minutes I concidered moving the date up from March '10 to March '09. That was a fun hour.

Right now the options are:

Have the ceremony at the Wright House in the morning then have the reception that evening at either my backyard, his backyard or possibly Sky's backyard

Have a morning ceremony and evening reception at  mine, his or his sister's backyard

Have the ceremony at his backyard and then a brunch with everyone there and then leave for our honeymoon then possibly have a small party when we return.

Elope. Just get married wherever we plan to have our honeymoon

Crazy. It's official.

Did you know that Mother's Cookies are went out of business, that means no more pink and white frosted animal crackers.

"kimokio31: Cookies
kimokio31: i had to say goodbye to a cookie
erasabledinasour: yes
kimokio31: these are now offically sad times"

Guest list's are still being typed up, the general budget is 5-10k and the theme is still being worked on. You know insanity has hit when I think about a vintage circus theme for the reception. Go with it, it could be interesting.

Well don't worry your little pretty heads because I have others. Geez.

Tim is going to build a dance floor so bring your dancing shoes because I better not be the only one out there.

I let Tim's mom borrow my telephoto lens while she was on vacation. It's been two weeks I haven't gotten it back yet.

I haven't done a thing for my blog. Everytime Tim has time I don't have interest. That's me.

Tim and I discussed wedding plans. I told him I was thinking about eloping. It is now officially an option.